( no one has ever made him feel the way she manages to do with the touch of his fingertips against her skin alone, with the way she looks at him like some part of her may have been unleashed with only his touch too. to have it back in the moment that he touches her again, it cracks something open inside of him that he fears revealing. it wasn't only his house that became a prison of his own making, but himself too. he learned better than to be too revealing especially around his grandmother who was so discerning, so sharp and sudden. her love is nearly as brutal as her hatred.
what he experienced with her, what they experienced together, he'd never had before. to have it ripped away in the middle of the night along with a shattering realization that it may have all been a lie- an illusion, and then the crashing reality of how much he might prefer the illusion to a reality that him bearing the brunt of her absence for the remainder of his life, a terrible thing for a scholar like him to feel. all the dark nights he spent thinking- ♪
he swallows thick, meets her gaze as he traces along the edge of her face across her cheekbone along her jawline. his thumb dares to trace the path of her bottom lip, and it draws a tremble through the rest of his body. )
I don't know. ( he releases a shudder of a breath as his gaze drops ) I believe that's why we must see. Together.
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what he experienced with her, what they experienced together, he'd never had before. to have it ripped away in the middle of the night along with a shattering realization that it may have all been a lie- an illusion, and then the crashing reality of how much he might prefer the illusion to a reality that him bearing the brunt of her absence for the remainder of his life, a terrible thing for a scholar like him to feel. all the dark nights he spent thinking- ♪
he swallows thick, meets her gaze as he traces along the edge of her face across her cheekbone along her jawline. his thumb dares to trace the path of her bottom lip, and it draws a tremble through the rest of his body. )
I don't know. ( he releases a shudder of a breath as his gaze drops ) I believe that's why we must see. Together.